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I feel <\/strong>torn between being a\u00a0supportive wife and protecting my own mental health. My husband has recently <\/strong>had <\/strong>great success <\/strong>using <\/strong>drugs, diet<\/strong> and exercise to lose weight. <\/strong>He has struggled for a\u00a0long time, and I am <\/strong>immensely<\/strong> proud of him, especially as he is now tapering off the medication<\/strong> and maintaining a healthy lifestyle.<\/strong> The problem is that I have struggled with anorexia and bulimia my entire life. I\u2019m not in therapy as I\u00a0can never find the right therapist. I go through periods whe<\/strong>n it\u2019s manageable, but sometimes it flares up<\/strong>.<\/strong><\/p>\n My husband is well aware<\/strong> that I still struggle<\/strong> with these issues. However, our daily life since his weight los<\/strong>s <\/strong>has become<\/strong> a<\/strong> constant stream of <\/strong>calorie talk<\/strong>, workout updates<\/strong> and <\/strong>discussions <\/strong>about his shrinking clothes.<\/strong> I pretend I\u2019m fine to avoid <\/strong>raining on his parade<\/strong>, and because he can be defensive when challenged<\/strong>, but <\/strong>beneath the surface I\u00a0am drowning. I have stayed the same size throughout our relationship, yet <\/strong>find myself constantly comparing my body <\/strong>with his progress. I\u2019m in my 40s and worry about getting older <\/strong>and being replaced. I am exhausted by <\/strong>trying to act as if I\u2019m<\/strong> <\/strong>OK<\/strong> when I am actually deeply triggered.<\/strong><\/p>\n How do I ask him to turn down the volume<\/strong> on his success without making him feel <\/strong> <\/strong>I\u2019m not proud of him? And how do I\u00a0protect my own recovery when the person I love most is unintentionally making it harder to stay afloat?<\/strong><\/p>\n I\u2019m sorry you\u2019re going through this. Your husband\u2019s weight loss and improved health is cause for celebration, but not at the expense of\u00a0your own mental health.<\/p>\n I went to the UK charity Beat Eating Disorders for advice. As you know, eating disorders can be incredibly isolating, and all the focus on weight loss drugs right now (and lots of misinformation) can be very triggering. It also seems quite unrelenting in your home with the focus on calories, weight loss, etc.<\/p>\n double quotation markPutting on a brave face is exhausting. In trying to keep the peace you are not\u00a0getting any yourself, and you deserve support<\/p>\n It sounds as if your husband needs more information on how you are feeling. Directing him to Beat\u2019s helpline may be useful so a third party can explain how to support you. That way it will appear less personal and not as if you\u2019re trying to rain on his parade.<\/p>\n \u201cYour\u00a0husband\u2019s role isn\u2019t to be a professional,\u201d said a Beat spokesperson, \u201cbut to be understanding and hear the impact it\u2019s having on you.\u201d<\/p>\n We also wondered whether your husband\u2019s relationship with his weight was potentially tipping into something unhealthy, and whether there was something you recognised there? That\u00a0could be very unbalancing.<\/p>\n I would gently urge you to have another look for a therapist. I know it can be exhausting to seek help, but Beat has a helpfinder where you can put in your details and access support in person, online or on the phone. Having someone to help you through this would be enormously beneficial and provide a safe place for you to discuss all these feelings, including the fear that you will \u201cbe replaced\u201d.<\/p>\n Putting on a brave face is exhausting. In trying to keep the peace you are not\u00a0getting any yourself, and you deserve support. By getting some help outside your relationship I hope you may then be able to communicate with your husband about how you feel. Remember: your feelings are as valid as his, and his needs should not take up all the space in your household.<\/p>\n Perhaps also looking for a shared interest outside food and weight might help you both bridge these gaps.<\/p>\n In the UK,<\/em> Beat<\/em> can be contacted on 0808<\/em> 801<\/em> 0677. In the US, help is available at <\/em>nationaleatingdisorders.org<\/em> or by calling <\/em>ANAD\u2019s<\/em> eating disorders hotline at 800<\/em> 375<\/em> <\/em>7767. In Australia, the Butterfly Foundation is at 1800 33 4673. Other international helplines can be found at Eating Disorder Hope.<\/em><\/p>\n Every week, Annalisa Barbieri addresses a personal problem sent in by a reader. If you would like advice from Annalisa, please send your problem to <\/em>ask.annalisa@theguardian.com<\/em>. Annalisa regrets she cannot enter into personal correspondence. Submissions are subject to <\/em>our terms and conditions<\/em>. The latest series of Annalisa\u2019s podcast is available <\/em>here<\/em>.<\/em><\/p>\n Comments on this piece are pre-moderated to ensure the discussion remains on the topics raised by the article. Please be aware that there may be a short delay in comments appearing on the site.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I feel torn between being a\u00a0supportive wife and protecting my own mental health. My husband has recently had great success using drugs, diet and exercise to lose weight. 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